Let’s be honest.
Let ME be honest.
I have a list of things that I SHOULD be doing that I KNOW will help me achieve my goals.
- Practice my guitar daily
- Vocal exercise research (and then practicing whatever ones I find that I think will be useful)
- Writing exercises from the lyric writing book I have been reading.
- Consistently staying in the WORD to keep my priorities and inspiration in check.
But I’m not. I start out strong and make it a couple of days… and then life gets in the way.
I have a list of things that I SHOULD be doing that I KNOW will help me be the healthy person that I want to be.
- Eat smaller portions.
- Drink lots and lots of water.
- Get INTENTIONAL exercise
- Get enough sleep at night.
But I’m not. Drinking water is like breathing– so I usually do okay with that one, but lately, not so much.
I know exactly why I am not doing them. And while it presents itself as laziness, a lack of motivation or passion for the end result, the truth is, it’s FEAR.
And I hate that.
Because I know that in HIM there is no fear. And I know that at the root of it all is the fear that I will not be good enough. BUT HELLO — if I never try, then I will never improve, and of course I won’t be good enough.
Here’s one more thing. If God has given me this assignment — to come to Nashville, and write music, and share the joy of His love to people, and I am too afraid to do anything, and I don’t practice and prepare so that the when the opportunity presents itself — then He would be perfectly just and right to choose someone else to achieve His purposes.
God doesn’t NEED ME to accomplish His will. He is inviting me.
Every time I choose to sleep a few more minutes instead of spending time in His word, or in His presence, I RSVP’ing a “no thanks … I’m washing my hair that night.”
Every time I keep scrolling through facebook instead of getting out my guitar, or working on those object writing pieces, I am RSVP’ing a “no thanks, it’s just such a busy time right now. Maybe later?”
It has to stop.
The Lord of the Universe is inviting me on this wild adventure. But I have to be brave enough, and bold enough to do the work necessary along the way. The thing that I always forget is that HE IS STILL WITH ME during the journey. He isn’t just waiting out of sight along the road. He is with me when I get up in the morning to get into the Word and His presence. He is with me when I am practicing my guitar and trying for the seventeenth time to make the barred chord transitions ring and sound smooth. He is with me through the whole journey.
Friends — what is God inviting you to do? Let’s be brave and bold and answer “YES!” to His call!
Tell me about your journey. Let me pray for you and cheer you on!